A regret I have. . .wow. . .that's heavy. I try very hard not to regret things. I think that everything that we do, good or bad makes us who we are today. After taking a few days off to really think about this I have came up with my only true regret.
My regret is letting an old friend hurt me so badly over and over again to the point that it now affects each and every one of my relationships with other women.
I'm so guarded because of everything that she did to me that now, as soon as any girl friend gets close to me I run away or I cause tension just so that she can't hurt me the way my old friend did. The positive side is that I'm finally seeing myself do this and trying to vocalize it to those friends who I feel I do this too, so that at least they know and will hopefully understand that I love them dearly.
I want to do a little shout out to my dear and oldest friend Claire for helping me see that I don't need people like that in my life and that I never did anything wrong in the first place. Everyday I'm healing a little more but it's hard. Thank you Claire for helping me find peace.
I suppose I couldn't have stopped the first incident but letting her back into my life several times afterward so that she could hurt me all over again was 100% my fault.
You can't hurt me any more! I'm more than done with you. I don't need to delete you from my life because you don't even deserve that much. Yes, my heart still carries the scars you gave but it doesn't carry even one ounce of you. Goodbye.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Day 09 — A photo you took.
I hope you aren't looking for a life changing, inspirational, moving photo. . . This is Cali, the wonder dog or the devil dog, depending on the day. I like to dress her up for Halloween, she on the other hand does not like to be dressed up for Halloween or any other day for that matter.
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Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Day 08 — Describe the style you had 10 years ago.
Oh goodness, I don't know. Hmm, let's see I was really into very tiny shirts and old man pants. Yes, you read that correctly. OLD. . . .MAN. . . . . PANTS. An idea shopping day for me would be to hit up some trendy store and find the littlest t-shirt there was and then mosey on over to Value Village to find some old man pants.
I wish so dearly that I could find a photo, hmm, alright, I'm going to try.
Ok, I've hunted and I could only find a couple and not the one I was looking for but blog world, mark my words, I'm going to keep looking and when I find it I'll post it because it sums up my style very very well.
Anyhoo, the photos that I did find are pretty close to how I attempted to dress often. I say "attempted to" because my dear Mother would have none of it and forced me to sneak clothes out of the house on a daily basis, can you imagine!
Speaking of my parents and my dress code. My poor Daddy to this day swears I'm colour blind and has tried over and over again to give me fashion advice, I still haven't really mastered that whole "matching thing". Sorry Daddy.
My Mother on the other hand stole my absolute favourite shirt when I was about 17 and still will not admit it!! Mother, if you are reading this, could you come clean to the world please. It was this itsy bitsy grey shirt that said "Las Vegas 69", damn I looked hot in that, haha. So hot in fact, that I will never ever ever in a million years even let my girls know that it existed.
Moving on from the clothing. The next part of my style, if you can call it that, would be the key ring I wore on a chain around my neck. I never went anywhere without it. In fact, I even wore it to grad, around my ankle but it was still on my person. That's a long story I'm certainly not getting into right now but I will say that I cried my eyes out when I lost it while swimming in the lake.
There you have it. Eighteen (actually, a little closer to seventeen but you get the just of it) year old Jenn. Enjoy!
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I wish so dearly that I could find a photo, hmm, alright, I'm going to try.
Ok, I've hunted and I could only find a couple and not the one I was looking for but blog world, mark my words, I'm going to keep looking and when I find it I'll post it because it sums up my style very very well.
Anyhoo, the photos that I did find are pretty close to how I attempted to dress often. I say "attempted to" because my dear Mother would have none of it and forced me to sneak clothes out of the house on a daily basis, can you imagine!
Speaking of my parents and my dress code. My poor Daddy to this day swears I'm colour blind and has tried over and over again to give me fashion advice, I still haven't really mastered that whole "matching thing". Sorry Daddy.
My Mother on the other hand stole my absolute favourite shirt when I was about 17 and still will not admit it!! Mother, if you are reading this, could you come clean to the world please. It was this itsy bitsy grey shirt that said "Las Vegas 69", damn I looked hot in that, haha. So hot in fact, that I will never ever ever in a million years even let my girls know that it existed.
Moving on from the clothing. The next part of my style, if you can call it that, would be the key ring I wore on a chain around my neck. I never went anywhere without it. In fact, I even wore it to grad, around my ankle but it was still on my person. That's a long story I'm certainly not getting into right now but I will say that I cried my eyes out when I lost it while swimming in the lake.
There you have it. Eighteen (actually, a little closer to seventeen but you get the just of it) year old Jenn. Enjoy!
Hearts mean love!!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy.
Today's assignment is a photo that makes me happy. I've never added a photo to a blog so this will be a learning process. Cross your fingers for me that it works. The first is a photo of Maggie and Lily when they were around 2 months old. It's so goofy but even then their personalities shined through! The last one makes me happy and sad. It's a photo of my Grandma and Grandpa Micklos the last time I seen them. I miss you guys so much, love you.
Hearts mean love!!
Hearts mean love!!
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Day 06 — Your favourite music video.
My favourite music video?? Oh dear, I have no idea. Are music videos still on TV? The only shows I ever see on Much Music or MTV are teen reality TV. That being said, even as a kid I was never into watching music videos. Hmm I guess I'll just think of the couple that come into my head.
I suppose "Video Killed the Radio Star" would be the first music video that comes to mind. I love the song but the video is awful, almost painful to watch all the way through in all honesty. It was the first music video MTV played so that's exciting I suppose but it is truly awful, haha, sorry Buggles, I love you guys just not the video. Wait, what the hell am I going on about, this is suppose to be about a music video that I like, haha, oh my, how I go off like that I'll never know.
Alright let's try this again. "Groove is in the Heart", please don't ask me to explain why I like this video but I do. Something about the way they dance just makes me happy inside. Especially at 1:14, 1:22, 1:26, 2:07, 3:15, 3:51, yeah, ok, that was a complete waste of time writing that all down. The whole thing, it's great, stop judging, I can read your mind! The slide whistles are pretty rad, let's all at least agree on that. And come on, that weird little pony-tail-bun thing the one guy is rocking, who isn't jealous of being able to pull that look off!? Ok ok, I'm done now!
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Friday, January 14, 2011
Day 05 — Your favourite quote.
I believe that this will be the hardest of the 30 days challenges yet. My favourite quote! I have so many, haha.
"You might not be there yet but you're closer than you were yesterday." I don't know who this is by, I'm sorry. Right now that one hits close to home with me, working out, weight loss, blah blah blah. It is very true though.
Einstein, oh Einstein, what didn't you say that I don't love, laugh at, smile at or be inspired by.
"Science is a wonderful thing if one does not have to earn one's living at it."
"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding."
"Do not worry about your difficulties in Mathematics. I can assure you mine are still greater." (one of my favourite of his, makes me laugh so hard, can you imagine someone complaining about a Math problem to Einstein and expecting to get sympathy, hahaha. Alright, I believe I've now officially shown my geeky side to the blog word. I am and will always be a giant geek at heart. I try to maintain the presence of a witty, cool and relaxed person but in all honesty, put a calculus problem in front of me and that's where the real Jenn comes out to play. The smile that creeps on my face while solving quadratic problems. . . mmm mmm mmm. Ok I'm drooling now, back to the quotes!)
"If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut."
I need to stop now, if I write any more of his quotes I will just get geekier and geekier on the inside and it might creep to the outside, we don't want that to happen.
My last Einstein confession (hmm, how did a blog about quotes turn into an Einstein honesty session?), I have this book of a lot of his findings and many of his quotes and whenever I'm feeling down I pull it out and read it. I swear it is the best cure for what ails you. Ten minutes with that man and I'm one happy lady. . .don't tell my husband!
Side note - None of this leaves my blog! I swear I will act like I have no clue who the man even is if you so much as utter one word about this to me in public, haha, kidding. I'm ready to come out of the calculus curious closet!
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Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Day 04 — Your favorite book.
This is an easy one! My favourite book is "Twenties Girl" by Sophie Kinsella. It's such a great book. It's about Lara, a 20 something girl with a very active imagination who gets visited by her dead Aunt Sadie. Sadie is very very bossy and gets Lara to do a bunch of wide and wacky things. The book makes you smile the whole time and even laugh out at some parts. There's humour, romance, touching moments and even a bit of murder mystery and detective work.
It's a very light fun read. I probably re-read the book once every 6 months.
See you tomorrow!
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It's a very light fun read. I probably re-read the book once every 6 months.
See you tomorrow!
Hearts mean love!!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Day 03 — Your favourite television program.
Morning all! I missed posting yesterday, my bad.
So the challenge today is to write my favourite television program. . . I really haven't been watching tv much at all lately. I use to record the few shows I like ever week but then my special receiver crapped out and the satellite company informed me that it was an error me having the receiver in the first place so they gave me a sub-par product to replace it so now I never use it. I really should cancel with them, not happy at all.
Moving on from my rant, haha.
Alright so my favourite shows. . .
My overall love would be "The Office", I felt like it was losing something last season but this season has done nothing but make me love it all over again and laugh until I'm crying.
Cheezy sitcoms, "Parks and Rec" and "Community".
For cartoons, "The Simpsons" and "Family Guy" are at the top of that list for sure!
Absolute crap that I can't get enough of, "My Super Sweet 16", "16 and Pregnant", "Teen Mom" (Wow, there seems to be an awful trend starting there. . . ).
My true addiction, "Hoarders" it's sick and it makes me gag but I cannot turn it off! Then I found it on Netfliks, oh Jebus, that was a marathon I'll never forget! (Can't wait for season 2 to arrive!!!!)
That's it that's all! Sounds like a lot but I maybe catch a couple of those shows once a month. I'm not into the doctor drama shows or the crime investigators. . .boring. . .
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Edit: I completely forgot about one very sick addiction that I have (deep breath) Jersey Shore. That is all.
P.S. If you haven't already, you should check out this great blog!!
Edit: I completely forgot about one very sick addiction that I have (deep breath) Jersey Shore. That is all.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Day 02 — Your favorite movie.
My favourite movie, that's an easy one. Stranger Than Fiction. I'm a huge Will Ferrell fan but this isn't a typical Will Ferrell movie at all, funny enough. Their first kiss is probably my greatest movie kiss of any movie I've ever seen, yes that's including the Notebook rain kiss, haha. The best scene in the movie, well in my opinion, in any movie is when he says "I brought you flours". I well up every single time I watch it (she's a baker, if you've never seen the movie before).
So that's it, my favourite movie and just a couple of reason why. Watch it!
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Saturday, January 8, 2011
Day 01 — Your favorite song.
Hmm, well, I know I'm going to get a lot of flack about this one but my current favourite song is "Firework" by Katy Perry. Now I normally can't stand her and I don't necessarily like her singing the song but the feeling that song gives me is pure joy. A rush of inspiration and a feeling that I can accomplish anything!! Watch the video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QGJuMBdaqIw and Katy Perry's sparkling boobies aside, tell me you don't honestly feel great after listening to it! Yeah I totally just watched it again, I should probably go and run a marathon now, haha! Seriously, that's how great I feel after listening to it.
Well Day 1, we did it! See you tomorrow!
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30 Day Blog Challenge!
So a very dear friend of mine started a 30 day blog challenge (The Ramblings of a Courageous Coward) and I think it's great so I asked him if I could copy his idea and with his blessing. . .here I go!
Day 15 — A poem you wrote.
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly).
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.
Day 18 — Tell us about your best friend.
Day 19 — A talent of yours.
Day 20 — A hobby of yours.
Day 21 — A recipe.
Day 22 — Your deepest fear.
Day 23 — Write a love letter to yourself.
Day 24 — Reveal your most guilty pleasure.
Day 25 — If you have tattoos, show them. If not, talk about the tattoos you want or why you don’t think they are right for you.
Day 26 — Talk about the last “random act of kindness” you encountered.
Day 27 — The last thing that made you cry.
Day 28 — Say something to your 15 year old self.
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days.
Day 30 — Share what you have learned, if anything, about yourself in the last 30 days.
So wish me luck!
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