A regret I have. . .wow. . .that's heavy. I try very hard not to regret things. I think that everything that we do, good or bad makes us who we are today. After taking a few days off to really think about this I have came up with my only true regret.
My regret is letting an old friend hurt me so badly over and over again to the point that it now affects each and every one of my relationships with other women.
I'm so guarded because of everything that she did to me that now, as soon as any girl friend gets close to me I run away or I cause tension just so that she can't hurt me the way my old friend did. The positive side is that I'm finally seeing myself do this and trying to vocalize it to those friends who I feel I do this too, so that at least they know and will hopefully understand that I love them dearly.
I want to do a little shout out to my dear and oldest friend Claire for helping me see that I don't need people like that in my life and that I never did anything wrong in the first place. Everyday I'm healing a little more but it's hard. Thank you Claire for helping me find peace.
I suppose I couldn't have stopped the first incident but letting her back into my life several times afterward so that she could hurt me all over again was 100% my fault.
You can't hurt me any more! I'm more than done with you. I don't need to delete you from my life because you don't even deserve that much. Yes, my heart still carries the scars you gave but it doesn't carry even one ounce of you. Goodbye.
Well said my dear. So glad you're done with this. Oh my you've come a long way my dear daughter! So proud of you. Love you, MOM
ReplyDeleteMom, umm, this is awkward. You... uhh, you're the friend I was referring too.
ReplyDeleteI kid, I kid! Just a little comical relief. I'm not so good at the serious stuff, I had to throw something in there.
Thank you for your kind words, love you!