I don't know how to get out of this awful funk! I want to scream!
The never ending snow and being sick for three weeks has definitely played a part but I'm just so frustrated! I'm frustrated with losing weight, I'm frustrated with money, I'm frustrated with potty training, I'm frustrated with house cleaning, I'm frustrated with sick little ones, I'm frustrated with living so far from my family, I'm frustrated with living so far from my friends, I'm frustrated with BEING FRUSTRATED!
You know how when you spell a word or look at a word so many times it starts to look funny, yeah, I'm there.
I've tried all my "relaxation" techniques, nothing is working. It feels like the more I'm trying to get everything together the more it's all falling apart. "Jack of all trades, Master of none". I first heard that quote spoken to a class mate in high school and thought it was the worst insult someone could be given, especially to such a talented girl. I, on the other hand, feel like the walking talking definition of that quote. I have/want a million things to be going on.
I use to have quite a knack for juggling all that life serves up but where I am currently, no circus will be hiring anytime soon! I'm not sure which is the lesser of two evils, focus solely on one aspect and let everything else fall apart or struggle to maintain (I use that term very very loosely) all that is thrown my way.
Urgh, blah, "Debbie Downer" at her finest. My rant is over, deep breath, big smile and off I go!
Hearts mean love!!
aww Jenn... wish I could do something to help you out a little! Just think, in a couple weeks you'll get a nice break in ENGLAND! just try to keep thinking positively and of what's to come and you'll get through it! love you!
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Cortney.
Are you just feeling overwhelmed? You need to take littlle breaks for yourself and when feeling down, stop those negative thoughts in their tracks. There's a theory that your brain neurons 'fire' in a traceable pattern/path, and same with those thoughts. You get used to thinking in a certain way. In order to stop it, you have to recognize that pattern when it starts, and cut it off right away - by thinking something positive.
ReplyDeleteI know it sounds hokey, and sometimes you want to just WALLOW - what's wrong with having a down day every once in a while, you need those, too - it's therapeutic to have a good cry every now and then!! So go for it, today! But tomorrow, or tonight if you can have a hot bath with Epsom salts with a gosh darn good glass of wine and cheap novel that you absolutely love, take stock of all the good things, and the little positives that happened today that you didn't want to recognize. Like me and Cortney reading your blog and wishing you happy thoughts!
HEARTS!!
Andrea
I'm right there with ya sista!!! It's like you're psychic and reading my own mind... Funny how similar we are on sooo many accounts. I know I know, everyone says it'll pass, even I know that it will, but right now I just can't see it. Instead of the light at the end of the tunnel getting brighter, it seems to get dimmer with every passing day. Maybe we just need to take a step back, pull off the extra dark sunglasses, and realize the light's still there - it's just our frazzled brains playing tricks on us.
ReplyDeleteI've been told on more than one occasion that I take on too much, and I can see from your post that you're the same. Somehow when I sign on my mind thinks I can handle it all, then reality strikes and I realize I'm not Superwoman and WHAT WAS I THINKING SAYING YES AGAIN!!!
So here's what I say... Let's stop being so hard on ourselves; stop sweating the small stuff - we know it's not truly life or death, even if it feels like it to us; stop with the strong front all the time- we're only human, humans have emotions, and sometimes those emotions get the better of us - just go with it; and most importantly (like your mom said) take stock in all the little positives that take place everyday (because they are totally there!)and let those pesky negatives slide right off our backs!
Just know that you've got people who are there for you- they've got your back no matter what!
Holy, did you see that, the light just got a little bit brighter ;)
Allana
Shoot - I should have put my last name on there - it's Andrea Hendry, not your mom! I totally forgot!!!
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